3 fucked up days

The pain in my heart, hurts so badly!
i just want to cry and scream!
but, the tears are coming out!
I can't stand my granny and my mother!
Is god testing me?

Dad is coming 2 Canada this Tuesday!
then leaving on the 1st week of October
i rather go to boarding school,
no need to face my granny, dad, mum..
just looking at them gives me stress

I dont know what i did but i got hit right back in the head really badly.
I wanted to meet zul!but, daddy said i had to go to ahma house..
i was freaking upset, though, i met him the day before!
ok, then i had to cancel it, went back to my place, but at the interchange
i met junlong and omg, the moment was damn awkward, that we didnt even talk to each other.
then went home, Johnthan,Aizat and Yu Nong were all asleep, being me, i decide to disturb them!haha..then dad came in and shouted, that they had to go home.
Sent them to the bus-stop, before that johnthan puked!haha

Went to eat dinner with the family, dad shouted/screamed/yelled at Vanessa and Me.
everyone was just looking at us, but, it didnt embarrass me that much and same goes to nessa..
i was so emotional, i called qijie, and my 5sec into the convo, my credit finished!
ate my dinner, then i walked as quickly as i could to my granny place, not even taking the lift..climb the stairs to 6th floor!
after that everything was fine, daddy said my friends could come to the airport..so i was damn happy..i called zul thinking that i was going to be at ahma places for a long time..but a few minutes into the convo, my parents said we were leaving!like wtf!
so, i told him that i wud called him when i get home!
I brought yu nong into the house while packing and after that i called zul!
we talked for about an anhour or so then we put down..
it was quite sad, it was even sadder when he said" i dont want to talk with you on the phone, because we never finish what we are talking!, i prefer face to face because then we finsh what we are talkin."
It was upsetting!

i was having tons of fun, we went to pick up misha,shikin and aizat.and by the time we reached home, it was 230..and we wasted so much time fighting with darcy to go shower.
We got into trouble cause daddy was losing his Patience.

Arriving at the airport, we had to Q up to check-in.Daddy shouted at the policewoman, cuz the agent didnt tell him to bring the letter from the school, two days in a row, but was that i wasnt very embarrass and later i told her we are canadian citizen, she was like" why didnt you say earlier."
After putting the luggages into the car, i was told that my friends wud come later, the 2nd trip..
then when we are almost to the airport, that asshole mother of mine,told me she is not bringing them to the airport anymore..i broke down in tears

After that, we procceed to go to the check-in luggages counter.I borrow dad phone to call logita.
she told me she was with nessa, i was so excited to see her, that i cried again at the counter. after they gave us my passport, i walked quickly to her, at the same time crying.Thanks for coming girl, i appericate the hug and the comforting words!well, she was with me, i called my 4 friends up to see how they were doing, crying the whole time.Misha also started crying,couldnt control myself.

I said bye to them and apologize because of my stupid mother.then i hugged logita bye,cuz she had to leave.We went outside the terminal to wait for that fucker!cuz she wants to hug me and darcy goodbye..then nessa told me the most cruel thing..

VAnessa and my friends version
That fucker upon arriving home saw my friends and nessa friends ask them what they were still doing here, told them to leave because my dad would get mad if he still see them here!Afny i love you for taking care of my friends..cab with them to mrt cause she felt sorry and pity for them..

The fuckers version
i wanted to send them to the airport but they didnt want me too..i knew it was a lie, but i didnt bother to shouted/scream at her..

anyway, i was planning to just walk away and not hug her.but i didnt do it, cuz im not a daredevil.so i hug her goodbye with attitude and god she hugged me tight.
we walked away without saying one last bye!

cried abit on the plane. thinking about what happened at the house.

When we arrived in Canada,saw uncle ed, he looked like a drug dealer..it was funny!
step into the world most smelliest car, my granny's car!puked 15minutes left of the drive to granny's.

saw shawnyce working and wanted to go see her, Darcy and i were like freaking happy!but then we got into a fight as he didnt want to wait for me. was about to leave for Cree's place when i saw granny, i should have walked away, without asking her if i could go over.
I asked her, can i go over to Cree's place
she was like no
I:why?
SHE:dont agrue with me.

pissed off went into my room.then, later, i gave her my attuide and when she was talking to me, she was like I'm sick, she wants me to care for her, but she doesnt care about other people.then, all her negativity came out.

She and that fucker can find a house together and gossip to each other about it!

where can i run away from all of this!then she told me im here to study and nothing more..
i feel worst than i was last time.i feel like im in a freaking prison!i can't wait till she leaves/dies.i wont even drop a tear for her!mayb i wont even attend her funeral that stupid fucker!
i have to live with her for 10months, how am i going to tahan her!

Her house smell really bad from the cigarettes and the kitchen is freaking messy, i guess, she is waiting for us to clean it for her, as always. I can wait till Nessa gets back from the boy's place!

What a long post and finally im done!