The First week of School

The First week of school didn't go so well.Usually, when it is day 1 of the school year!im always so excited that i can't get to bed!but this year..it changed, i was very tired and not very excited.i was actually very nervous, who is going to be in my class and who am i going to be seating with in class.

So, the first and second period didn't go to well.Cause, i walked through the hall like a total loner and then i sat in class and was talking to no one!It was quite upsetting!Then 3rd period came..which is after lunch..Ms armstrong called my name, and to my amazement!Jaime and Amanda were like EXCITEDLY:"Heidi" and waving..haha..it made me really inside happy and made me smile for a moment or so!then chris was like i missed you over the summer, Heidi..that made me laugh and smile even more..But, he said that he was kidding!hahha..

At 4th period, Emma was in my class and she was excited to see me and so was i..cause she is the only one who actually speaks to me beside Jaime and Amanda.I was happy that she was sitting next to me, but then it was the wrong seat and so, she moved to the right side of me but one seat down..cuz we were sitting in rows!so ya!

But, people are starting to talk to me, and me too..but, i still wander the hall by myself..it sucks!
anyway, Camp Arowhon is in a few weeks and im excited for it..i really hope to get some good friends there! people who like hanging after school and love sports..but anything would do!

But, daily, i still miss Singapore!i think about YOU GUYS everyday..when im doing nothing, nessa keeps reminding to stop thinking about it..and i to her, cause we can't stop thinking about what happened in Singapore and the more we think the more we get depressed..and lately, we keep on listening to emo song, UNLIKE MR TS WHO IS NOT EMOTIONAL DEPRESSED!LIKES LISTENING TO EMO SONG..I DO ANYTHING, TO TAKE THE PAIN IN MY HEART AWAY!BE A HAPPY ME, LIKE SECONDARY 1 OR 2!!

I think that pain in my heart is the reason why i don't like anyone, it just hurts to much..i have been hurt so badly by a love one that it is going to take forever to heal!GOD, that sucks!